I mean, I still kinda am, but I also think I've mellowed out a bit, I'm not trying to make excuses because I know I said some awful shit, but I am trying to give some context to it.
When I first started blogging, I was in my late teens/early twenties. I was more interested in drinking beer and (unsuccessfully) chasing women than I was in thinking about the effects of my words. I can't say I necessarily stand by everything I said, but I also don't necessarily apologize for all of it. Anything I said I meant, at least at the time.
I have always been a passionate person, quick to form an opinion and not necessarily the right one. However as time passes and I get older, these opinions may change. Maybe not, though. I'm still not a big fan of Criss Angel, though I probably don't have the venomous hatred that I used to.
Let's be honest, we've all done or said or felt really dumb things in the past. Hell, I used to think Hanson was the shit when they first came out. I was wrong about that, I can be wrong about other things too. I do know that if you give a hotheaded seventeen year old free reign of a platform with a worldwide audience, things aren't always going to go well.
I know I said a lot of shit and made some enemies. I also know I'm a gigantic pussy and wouldn't have said a tenth of that to people's faces. In person I'd probably say, "You know, it's not really my style but I can see where you put in the work and other people enjoy it." Online it was more, "Fuck you, you suck, douche-bag, go kill yourself." Which, again, at seventeen I thought was funny and I was hot shit. Now that I'm knocking on the door of thirty, I see that it isn't funny and remembering doing that makes me cringe.
As I remember things that make me cringe or I've changed opinion on, I'm going to discuss them here. I would also like to extend an offer to anyone who may read this: If I have said something about you, or you remember me saying something about someone else, email me with the highlights to refresh my memory and I'll revisit it here. Give me the chance to say "Hey, things changed, I was wrong."
Normally I hate when people apologize for things they've said and I know it's hypocritical for me to do so. Just remember, I have no advertisers or sponsors to appease. This isn't someone trying to save his job. I'm just a guy who, after having a lot of time to reflect, realizes he said some douchey, shitty things when he was young and is genuinely embarrassed and sorry for that.
- Andster
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